The Undisclosed
These are a few of the undisclosed feelings we never share.
I used to be very nihilistic, and thought my life was meaningless and frankly didn't want it. After a life changing year, including witnessing the death of a friend and then caring for his wife and trying to convince her to not end her life, and connecting to nature in a big way, I have come to greatly value my life. Yes, life is fucking painful. But it is also beautiful. Even though I don't always feel it, I KNOW that it is worth it. I am constantly reminding myself that LIVING IS WORTH IT. Sedating the pain (through drugs, sleep, television, unhealthy relationships, whatever) is a waste of my time. After all, who knows if ill be here tomorrow. All I really have is this moment. The right here, right now. And that in itself is abundance. I try to feel the pain to its fullest extent, and then let it go. Its much easier said than done, but I'm working at it. Aren't we all just a work in progress anyway? Follow your bliss. Honor your darkness. I really appreciate that you are doing this. I hope you share what you learn.
11/12/2013 2:13 PM
11/12/2013 9:36 AM
I feel great about life! Im young and stuff so I still have time to fuck up. But for now Im loving life.
Peachy keen! It's been pretty miserable and cold these past few weeks, but I just can't help smiling and feeling on top of the world.
2/10/2015 8:21 AM
I suck at most parts of it as of late. Sometimes I feel like a failure. But I try to tell myself it could always be worse. I have it good compared to most people in the world. I sweat over the small things and don't look at the big picture enough. I'm privileged though not what most in this country consider as such, but on a global scale. I'm ungrateful. And that is why I suck.
11/13/2013 2:37 AM
I think my mind exists in the future. Always excited about the next big thing, event, day, month, year etc. It's harder for me to process things in the present, as they never seem so exciting after my mind hypes them up so much. It's like I exist within a clouded bubble, missing out on the world's greatest thrills because I'm too preoccupied with what's next. I can always wake up earlier tomorrow. I can be more productive, read this or check that out tomorrow, but forget about the day I just wasted. And then I go to sleep and it starts again. i recently realized how fucked up that sounds and started to be more self-aware about it. But then I moved too fast in dating someone, and abruptly found out I was on the outside of an open relationship. It happened yesterday and I'm still in that state of hurt where I don't have words to describe my emotions yet. All I know is I just want some gummy bears.
2/10/2015 10:00 AM
I feel as though I should be happy because I have a job that lets me do many of the things I always wanted and a lot of wonderful friends, but I'm not completely satisfied. It's like I've reached one goal, and now I'm asking "what's next?" I want more from my career and relationship. I want to rediscover my hobbies. I need a new goal to work toward.
2/10/2015 10:26 PM
The Undisclosed
Often times we go through life with a mask, telling the world we are ok, and sometimes we are. I asked the question in a anonymous survey, "How do you feel about your life?" When people are provided with an anonymous space to share their deepest feeling, beautiful things happen.
Take the survey:https://www.surveymonkey.com/s/G9NGPPL
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